I’ve come to realize that I can at times bite off more than I can chew. I refuse to ask for help so I just plod along and struggle though until I reach the finish line. Right now I am working full time, taking 2 courses that each demand full time student attention, writing paid content for an online company, trying to squeeze in at least 3 day’s work of gym time to help control my sugar levels so that my diabetes won’t get out of hand, and spend quality time with my family.  It’s a lot to take on in just 24 hours.  Even though I am doing well in all these activities and I’m keeping up somehow, it can be overwhelming.

I know that one of my biggest flaws is with time management and procrastination. I mean I will wait until the last possible moment before I do anything and that just leads to a back up of work and that just least to me being stressed about it and then the task ends up taking way longer than necessary.  Ughh. Why can’t I just do things in a reasonable time? I know why, because I’m sort of a perfectionist.  I am never done with anything.  I feel like it could always use ‘one more thing’. If I wait until the last possible moment then I won’t have time to go back and ‘fix’ things. I have to put my best into it at that time and that’s it.  I tried this with a paper that I was doing for class. I started the paper like 2 weeks earlier than normal. I only needed it to be 2-3 pages. By the time I ended up turning it in like 3 weeks later it was 8 pages!, I ended up having to go back and trim and cut it but if I had done it a week early like usual it would have been the correct length and I still would have gotten a good grade.

Besides from being a perfectionist I’m also a procrastinator so my work is never done and it never starts!! I really need to work on the procrastination more than the perfectionism (if that’s even a word. Too lazy to look it up). I mean to try and make something perfect all the time is one thing but to wait until the last possible moment to get it done on top of that is bad business.  I think that the procrastination comes in because I never feel like I’m ‘done’ and that I can  start later and it’ll be okay because I’m good at this or that.  Fooling myself into this false sense of security.  I need to work on a few things but these are the biggest two right now. I graduate in December so I really need to get it together as I switch it into high gear.

Anyway that’s about it for me since my break is over, and now back to my psych reading.

Peace

Sincere

As we go through life we tend to take things for granted.  Things like the fact that we are even here.  We put off things that could be done now for later or we don’t realize and appreciate the present that is a new day.  Everyday is important and you should strive to live it like it’s your last because you never know, it very well may be.  Yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the unknown future but today is the present, Treat it as such. A present.

Peace

Sincere

So the above video is just made because I have a camera that I never use so I need to do something about that! Anyway, here’s my story;

I stopped by CVS to pick up a few things and this guy in front of me was buying a bunch of stuff.  I noticed that he kept shifting things around. so when the cashier was ringing the stuff up and moved some chips I saw the condoms.  When I saw them I just looked up and his face was all red and he was looking all nervous.  Why? I don’t know. I mean what’s the big deal about buying condoms? It’s 2010! If you’re having unprotected sex you are a moron so I would proudly display it if that were me but of course it wasn’t me it was this lil fool in front of me.

This had me thinking. Was I embarassed to buy condoms when I was younger? Nope. Never have been nor will I ever be.  If you’re not embarrassed enough to do the do then you shouldn’t be embarrassed to buy protection.

That.is.all

Sincere

I finally have my diabetes under control and even though I’m type 1 so I need it to survive I only need a small dosage thanks to my exercise and diet regimen.

Remember when I said I was going to do a total overhaul of my diet? Yeah, ummerra that hasn’t totally taken affect yet. I did however cut out sweets as well as fried foods. I need to watch my sugar intake as well as my cholesterol.

Slowly but surely I’m taking my health back to where it should be.

Check it out the video and Skyyjohn’s play by play:

This is not a good time for my laptop to start acting the fool! I have some homework that needs to be done, I need to start writing some stuff for this new job, I have some stuff in my amazon shopping cart that I need to buy, and I need to edit a video.

Uggh I just need to stop playing and buy a new one. The problem with that is having to transfer everything from the old one to the new one and re customizing it to my standards. Its definitely going to be a pain but this is the second or third time this month that this laptop has done this to me. The other two times weren’t as severe though.

Me and this laptop have been through the ringer together. Lot of memories but its time for me to move on. Maybe it saw me searching online for a new one this morning, adding it to my shopping cart and bookmarking the site and now out a jealous fit decided to act up. Ya think? I don’t know but whatever the problem is I’m not putting any more money into fixing it. Its time for an upgrade anyway.

Now twitter, that’s a totally different story! I am always connected to twitter. Even if I’m not updating or replying I’m reading all the foolishness and the occasional interesting tweet or link that fills my screen. Twitter is always good for a laugh. To give up twitter will be hard but we all know twitter aint nuttin but da devil!!!

The problem I face is that I have a twitfeed set up that automatically puts a link to my blog whenever I update it. That shouldn’t really count unless I actively or manually go to the site or link something right? Right. I mean its not like I’m going to write something just so that it can post to twitter. That would be crazy right? Right?

Anyway, it came down to facebook or twitter and since I use twitter as the biggest waste of time of the two, plus like I said we all know its the devil, I’ve decided to let twitter go for lent. If you do follow me @sincerethoughts then I’ll check back in with you on April 4th. Until then check me out here or at Youngwritersblock.org. I’m sure I’ll be posting a whole lot more during the next 40 days.

Peace
Sincere

Have you ever liked something only because someone else says how great it is? Sometimes people can make something sound or look so interesting that you want to be a part of it. This can be a gift and a curse.
The gift is in the ability to see how wondeful something is and how enjoyable it can be. The curse is that it may not be for you.
The love shown for something can be infectious. Similar to a laugh or yawn. One person’s happiness or sadness can carry on to anyone around.

I just don’t get it. Then once she has a baby with him and he doesn’t do anything to support the child she decides to dog him on facebook via status updates.  I’ll never understand why people put all their business in the status updates and on twitter anyway, but that’s a different post.  whenever I see someone do this I call them on it.  You knew he or she was trifling before you laid down with them all those times but now that you have a child and you see that he’s not doing anything you want to dog him.  I am in no way condoning the guys’ behavior but c’mon son! That’s like you buy a car knowing it has a bad engine then get mad at the person who sold it when it breaks down.  You knew going in that if you got pregnant that it wouldn’t end well!  Get over yourself and move on.

This is not about those guys that changed once the woman gets pregnant.  I know there are plenty of guys that have done that.  This is about the ones that are no good to start with yet women continue to be with them.  They pass up a good guy that will treat them with respect to be with the jerk that treats them like crap.  I guess good guys do finish last. I think women are attracted to that bad boy image. I see it all the time.  Women that have this long list of what she wants in a man, ya know like nice, respectful, neat blah blah.  So you’re thinking okay she wants a good guy bu then when you see her date or boyfriend he’s the total opposite of what she says she wants.  This was so frustrating to me growing up.  I was always taught to treat women with respect so that’s what I did but for a little while when that wasn’t working I went into the bad boy ish phase and treated girls like objects as opposed to the young women that they were.  Funny thing is, I ended up being with more girls as a bad boy pseudo thug then by being a gentleman.  I know this is going in a different direction but it will all come back full circle.  See these same women that are dogging the thug because he got her pregnant with his 5th or 6th child, that he has no intentions of taking care of, are the same women that have this long list of things they want in a man.  Ya know, treats them nice, takes care of them, neat, respectful?

All I can say is that it takes two people to have a baby, and yes he is not doing his part to help raise the child, you were aware of this before you even got serious enough to sleep with him.  Yet you did it anyway, now you want to put all the blame on him.  Is that fair?  No. Is he being fair to you by not taking care of his seed? No.

The bottom line is, people need to be more careful about who they decide to lay down with.  Especially if you know their past history of neglecting their children. We really need to wise up and realize that this doesn’t do anything but hurt the child.  I don’t care what anybody says or how ‘independent’ the woman is a child needs both a mother and a father. A boy needs to learn certain things from a man and a girl needs to learn certain things from a woman.  If I had a daughter and no wife or woman in her life then when she started to have her period, for example, I wouldn’t be nearly as knowledgeable about it as my wife or the woman in my life would be.  I could read a million books but that woman could give her first hand knowledge.  If a boy grows up with his mother and no father or male figure, he is missing out on certain things as well.   I do believe single parents can raise happy, well rounded, adjusted children into successful adults but with that extra male or female figure it makes it a little easier.

Take from this what you may but remember that it takes two to tango and if you knew he wasn’t worth a damn from the jump then you should have kept your legs closed. Period. End of discussion.  Now your child(ren) has to suffer because of your of indiscretions.  Child please.

Peace

Sincere

It is fine and understandable to want to hold on to and keep certain things close to our hearts but in order for us to succeed we have to at some point let some of those things go. We tend to miss out on things of importance because our hands are full of less important nonsense. Evaluate your situation and let those things go!

Peace
Sincere