2009 December 23 | My Sincere Thoughts

My Thoughts While at The Doctor

Once again I’m sitting in the doctor’s office awaiting my lab results. So far everything has been going well and actually better than expected. See I’m a fighter and I hate sickness. I refuse to let this not only claim my physical body but my mind as well. I treat it as if its nothing. When I say nothing I mean I have worked it into my daily routine so well that taking the insulin and testing my levels are second nature to me now.
I’m still in the works as far as overhauling my eating habits completely but I’m about 60-70% done. I feel healthier and when I went home everyone seemed to noticed that I gained weight but I’m actually about 15 pounds smaller than the last time they saw me. Not sure what’s up with that.
I haven’t really been in the Christmas/holiday/birthday celebration mood this year. Truth be told I haven’t really been in the mood for about 10 years now but I’m a good actor and I can pull it off when need be.
I’ll be 30 years old this year yet I don’t feel excited about it. I was pretty hyped about it around a month ago but ut seems as the days get closer I’m less interested in doing anything and I just want to treat it like any other day. I should do something though. I’ve never had my own birthday celebration. Never. My birthday is on December 31st so I may get a cake and a song at the new years party as they really celebrate the new year. I thought about throwing myself a party but that would be wack because they still would focus on new years and not my actual birthday. Ah well, what are ya gonna do?