You Aren’t Done Yet?

okay so I bought this new camera about a month ago. It’s not really new but new to me ya know? Anyway, it’s a Fuji s3000 and I’m all pumped and ready to start flashing and taking pics but as the time goes on I start to get bored with it. This is typical with me, that’s why I have 2 digital cameras and 3 camcorders (they also take pics) that are just staring at me waiting for me to choose one of them to help document my life. I always have at least one, and most times two, of them with me at all times, but never find that ‘should have had a camera’ moment. I am sure if I just record or take pics of lots of stuff I can find that moment. So I have pledged to start recording and taking pics all the time. Well almost all the time. I bought these things because I really enjoy photography and cinematography and I thought that would motivate me but ummerra…. hasn’t really happened, at least hasn’t stuck for a while.
I’m so unfocused at times. I pick something and then get bored with it and stop. Funny thing is, these are things that I actually enjoy. I don’t know if it’s laziness or just A.D.D. but I got it bad! I always seem to pick things that challenge me but it’s like as soon as I get the hang of it and understand, something else catches my eye. I’m constantly switching or changing something. I like to get things done, and right of course. If it takes to long to do something I’m not with it. I mean I have patience but I’m not good at practicing it. My grandmother (R.I.P. Big Momma, I miss you!!) always gave me these two conflicting and contradictory pieces of advice;
“It don’t take all day to do nothin’!” and “It’s always greater later.” I know that they are on opposite sides of life but these are some of the quotes I live by. I’m patient and willing to wait (‘Greater later’) but I don’t like to take too long to get anything (‘Don’t take all day…’). Weird right? I know, but it is what it is… I guess that’s what makes up the randomness that is me!
Just like this post… When I started I was all into it but as time went on and thoughts got scribed, I’ve lost interest…

Peace
Sincere